blustery, rainy, northwest day….

is what it feels like in my town today.

i am back in my own town today, and today is my big training session that i have to do. the first of many, i am sure. this one is unique and cool, though, because this is the first time i am going to have a computer lab where everyone has their own pc, to go along the training materials with me. life is good…

i have a lot of stuff to write about.

when i saw my mother-in-law the other day, she was sitting up in a chair, she asked me to help her brush her hair, and she looked at me and smiled and said "today, i am happy. i FEEL good." right on, c-woman. a week ago, we weren’t sure if you’d be pushing up daisies soon. THAT’S what i call a strong constitution. this made me very happy…

then, i was asked to go to the different facilities to see if they were decent for her. i found one that i thought was very nice, and made my recommendation, only to learn that her insurance would not authorize that place and they sent her somewhere in bumfuk egypt. this does not make me any more fond of insurance companies, which i already have a healthy disdain for. bah. fuck insurance companies. seriously.

i feel sorry for my mother-in-law because now that the immediate crisis seems to be over, no one really knows what to do. this is a complicated situation with that family. i was asked to go the facilities because her husband didn’t have time to go and he doesn’t have any medical experience. then, she didn’t get to go to the one we wanted her too anyway. she is having issues because she is still somewhat in denial about her health status. she isn’t being treated appropriately because she isn’t being honest with her doctors, but the doctors won’t listen to anyone but the patient. i wish this family strength in dealing with this. i will give my opinion, and have to my husband, but in this instance, i am still somewhat of an outsider. i think i am actually the only -in-law that was invited to come down when she was sick. she needs someone to advocate for her, though…she doesn’t seem capable of advocating for herself. and her family wants to, but it seems no one will listen. tough times, for them, and for us, really.

when i got home last night, the house was somewhat a disaster. i am upset at my son because he purchased a wolf-hybrid puppy while i was gone. we discussed him having a dog, and i thought we were having a conversation, he thought i was giving tacit approval. he is a cute little guy, but my son is learning what a large responsibility it is to have a dog and my carpets and his blankets and bed are paying the price of that. like i said, cute bugger, though. there was a sink full of dishes, but everyone i asked who has been staying in the house all swears they are not their dishes. i will soon be printint mutual respect contracts for everyone who lives in my house. everyone will sign and agree to it or discussion will ensue, but it will be done. this is rather bullshit.

i miss d. he is still in vegas and shall be until the 17th of this month. i am glad he can be there for his family.

i am wasting time before my training class, but i probably should go so that no one sees me writing in my online diary when i am supposed to be preparing to train them =)

have a good day everyone….

peace.