On Stuff….

well, she did email me yesterday and let me know she was okay, so that’s a good thing. i wonder how she will react at my not being around for thanksgiving? i am trying to make arrangements for my kids to have other plans. they don’t need to be around sickness, injury, and depressing stuff around the holiday.

i will be flying to vegas tomorrow to meet with d and help with shifts at the hospital so that someone is there with her at all times. d says he thinks she’s pretty messed up, but does not believe that she will die. i hope that he isn’t disappointed if things turn out differently or that he is okay. he doesn’t sound very okay now. i can always tell because he talks in short, choppy sentences. isn’t it weird how well we become to know people after awhile?

there’s some shit happening at work that makes me want to tell some people to fuck off, but of course i won’t do that. the cool thing is that this is very similar to something i went thru when i first implemented this database, but there is a lot of comfort in knowing that i came thru that just fine and will come thru this also, just fine. i am much more confident now, i know my stuff, and i have management support, which i always did, but there was doubt before because none of us had done this before. there’s no doubt now. it’s just a matter of getting thru it.

i feel a little guilty because i have been indulging in some comfort foods with all the stress lately. a cookie here, a donut there. i had an apple fritter yesterday and it was divine. this morning are two cookies left over from a meeting yesterday with my morning coffee. i think as long as i don’t make this a habit, i should be fine.

it’s really funny to me how life just keeps on keeping on. something happens to alter your world forever, and when you look outside, the birds are still there, people are still making their morning commutes, trudging along, and everything seems the same except that your world has been altered forever. is this perception or reality? is there a difference? pensive much? lately, yeah, i suppose i am. i felt like writing this morning, purging more. for moments, i sit here and just stare at the screen until something strikes me.

my mom and i went out to eat pho last night. i don’t think i will ever be able to eat pho without fond memories of going to the pho house up north with teresa. what a lovely memory to fall back on when things are tough. thank you, my friend.

i feel like i have said what was in my head this morning. i need to make some arrangements to make sure i have a ride from the airport tomorrow. i need to see if i can find the free passes from my sisters airline, otherwise i will have to pay $100 for the flight, which still isn’t bad with no notice.

have a great day, everyone.

peace.