Year, in Review….

So there it is.   And there it was.

And here it is: the year in summation.   For those of you who aren’t familiar with this little exercise, basically it’s just the first sentence from the first entry of every month.   Last year’s seemed to be a bit more accurate and relevant, but hell.  My life is nothing if not inaccurate and irrelevant!

JANUARY:  "i found an amazing resource today. it spoke to me in a way that nothing has for a long time."

FEBRUARY: "part of me wants to write, and part of me does not."

MARCH: "i went to new york for five days and got to see the city all by myself."

APRIL:  "one of my major stressors lately has been work."

MAY: " the jazz festival was awesome, as always. it’s so funny the range of emotions that occur during this weekend…everything from "OMG i can’t believe it’s here" to "why do i do this again?!?!?!""

JUNE: "i am sad for people that i have read here for a very long time who have just experienced a tremendous loss."

JULY:  " i feel kind of bad for my poor son."

AUGUST:  " another weekend is gone by and wow, am i tired =)"

SEPTEMBER:  " burning man was as amazing as it ever is, this year. this was a very good and cool year for me, personally, professionally/volunteer-wise, and relationship-wise also."

OCTOBER:  "i spent my ENTIRE WEEKEND cleaning my house."

NOVEMBER:  "i knew my mom was sick, and i knew she had a lot of issues."

DECEMBER: "so, yesterday i got up and went to get my mom up to go to the bathroom in the morning."

so there it is. and there it was. and now i have to figure out how to continue to exist. i have to be responsible. i have to be a grown up.

i don’t have a mom anymore.

i feel somewhat adrift.

peace….i write as in my town, the 3000 american soldier killed in iraq is being protested in my town.