well, yesterday was b’s first test of independence and regained trust. her task was to take the bus home, buy herself a bus pass, and then make it home. this made me feel better. am i ready to give her back her cell phone and pretend everything’s fine? not on your life….but it’s a start.
in other news, i have been apathetic and somewhat sad lately. not sure what this funk is, just that i am in one.
the days here are very fall-like. the mornings are very cool, in the mid-30’s to low 40’s, and it warms up to the 70’s during the day. what a range!
last weekend i went to a bellydance open floor thing, not sure if i mentioned that or not. tonight is my class with that teacher. i was going to go to another one, but at the last minute i discovered how broke i was and we couldn’t really afford it. that’s okay, though, there will be another time. i am debating now whether or not to move to the intermediate classes for bellydancing. i think i will stay in these ones for the time being. i will reevaluate after the holidays. i think i might take the advanced on on fridays next spring. and with nahlah’s classes, i just have to pay $10 more a month to go to her other class. hers is a performance troup, though, and i am worried about that because i don’t think i feel good enough to dance in front of people yet. and yet, when i do, like when she pulls me up on the stage, then i love it. but that doesn’t have all my fat hanging out, it’s just me in street clothes pretending i have rhythm. heh.
i also went on a hike last weekend. we did two hours and estimate about six miles. that was good.
at some point over the weekend, i pinched a nerve or something in my lower back. it really affected me. it’s like nothing from the waist down was functioning properly….i felt bloated, constipated (TMI, i know) and had a hard time twisting. felt sort of sciatic in nature, but deeper. it seems to have started loosening now, thanks to a half of one of d’s flexoril last night, but THAT zonked me out majorly. but it did help the nerve. anyway, glad THAT’S on the mend….i haven’t experienced something that intense before. perhaps this is a karma hit for being less-than-sympathetic towards d at times when his back is bothering him. if it was, this made me a believer, so enough, already =)
that’s about all for me right now. more later, if i can or if i feel like it =)
peace.
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