Everything transferred!

So, now, everything is transferred from my other domain. There's been a lot that I have not written about in about the last year. Adventures, transitions and grand baby's! Yes, in the time since I've updated, I have had the news that ALL my children are making me a gramma in the same year!

Here is a picture of Cash, with his mom, a pretty recent picture:

Cash was born on 11-5-14, he was over a month early. Here's a collage his mom made for his birth:

I haven't met Cash yet, but am very excited to. They have been in Germany for the last few years, but they are back in Washington state now, and it feels SO GOOD to be in the same time zone as my son again!

This, is Vera Lynn:

She was born on March 6th, and she is my other son, David's daughter! She lives with me, so I get to spoil this baby all the time. Here's the Easter Dress:

And here's one that was bought at the same time as the Easter Dress:

And finally, here's Brianna, my baby girl, who is due in July. This is her at 31 weeks:

There's something uniquely satisfying, entertaining, heart-warming, about seeing my children have children of their own. I am immensely relieved to no longer be in that place, but satisfied that I can be a help, but not carry the entire responsibility.

I am getting ALL THE BABIES!! It's crazy how many people are pregnant or having babies right now!

First update without the other blog....will update more. There are things like my recent trips, to Costa Rica and Madison, Wisconsin to post about, yay!

For now, 

~Peace

Times, they are a changing....

So, it's been forever since I posted here. For a few years, I had another blog, on my "own" domain, and I would update there once or twice a year, not often enough. Thing is, I've been paying for this service, and it's a cool service, but a long time ago, this service offered "lifetime web hosting". Now, I was skeptical, but truth be told, it was only $299 and I figured if we got five years out of it, we would have gotten more than our money's worth. It's been almost a decade and we are still there. When I made the arrangement, I told these folks that it was for a non-profit and said non-profit did not have a lot of money. They seemed eager to help. However, over the last year, it seems to me they've put this "free" or "lifetime" domain on the slowest, crappiest server there is. My paid for domain works great. You know that old saying about, "how you treat the person who can do nothing for you says a lot about your character"? That's kind of how I feel about this, and so I don't think I'm going to pay the domain registration this year. I am going to put my money elsewhere and not support a business that didn't do a great job of supporting me. Here's what I think of that:

Now, funny thing, this picture was actually taken to signify my reaction to drinking this "super greens" drink you see beside me. While I am sure it was super good for me, the taste was a little less than palatable. Ha. So, the point of all this is that I think I am going to migrate all the old posts over and put them here. This is free, it's still here, and not giving my money to someone who doesn't deserve it. That's it. Peace out!

Gratitude

today, i seem to have waken up on the wrong side of the bed. things that don’t normally bother me, have bothered me today, things that don’t generally annoy me, have been annoying me. that seems like a great time for me to update here, let everyone know what’s happening, and remember all the things i should be grateful for and right now, there’s plenty.

first and foremost, on june 20th of this year, i left my employment at lawlor events center. it’s so amazing how much can change in two years! i will never, ever be sorry for the experience that i had there, but long term, it wasn’t the right place for me. when i was out on leave with my knee surgery last october, it was during that time that i decided i needed to be some place else. it was a really hard process for me to go through, and i learned a lot. i did a lot of self-examination, because i’ve never really quit anything in my life and i kept thinking that leaving lawlor would be an admission of some sort of failure. what i realized is that isn’t the case. being ABLE to do something isn’t the same as CHOOSING to do it. in the end, it wasn’t the right fit for me.

that’s such a very small piece of what’s happened in the last few months though…. also as a result of that injury, surgery, and resultant stuff that goes along with it, around march or april, i was ordered by the state to go and see a state-sanctioned doctor.

i went because they told me they had to. as a result of that, i got a settlement for a fair amount of money. not a huge amount, but enough that in thinking about what to do with it, this had been the year i was supposed to go and visit my son, chris.

after talking it over with dan, he wanted to do some yard and hottub work with his portion, but he said i should still go to germany… i talked to the kids, and they seemed pretty excited too.

i told them that it didn’t matter to me all that much what we did, as long as we were together, i was sure we’d have fun. then came the task of asking for the time off…always a stressful and interesting experience, but in the end, it was granted, which is all that matters.

i ended up going to germany for about 12 days all told, and we managed a lot of miles, four countries, and seven castles! IT. WAS. AMAZING.

i am going to end this post here, start the germany posts, and then continue. not sure how long it might take me to catch-up, but i will try to get ‘er done now that stress doesn’t rule my life. today, i am grateful for EVERYTHING!

Remembering what matters...

Now, it's been another four months since I've updated. Those are somewhat hard months for me. During football and basketball season, there are some long hours and lots and lots of games. Now, basketball season has ended with no post-season play for our teams, and we are heading into a more mellow time. That's the job.

I've been trying over these last months to remember and make time for all the good in my life and remember the things that are important to me. Friends. Family. Being a part of a community besides where I go to earn my living each day. I've so missed my Fire Family and Burning Man community. I am not involved to the extent I was before, but I am trying to make time and be involved where I can be. I think it's important.

 

The above picture is from December when some friends came to visit. We ate at this amazing local place that sources as much local food as they can, called Greatful Gardens. Good times! That's what matters.

Things with the kids are okay. B is going through some tough times, and Chris is still in Germany. With any luck, I will be going to visit him soon.

With the birdies, our little Pinkie bird died in a tragic accident, she was drowned in the toilet when she flew there on accident and couldn't get back out. Least said about that the better. Sad, and I still miss that little birdie.

In an interesting twist, my nephew (I think of him as my son), David, his wife and their kids (consider them my grand kids) are staying with us. With Bri gone, it's been amazing for me, helped assuage the loneliness. Having kids around has been interesting, but they are good kids. Getting to know Annette, David's wife, better has been pretty darn cool.

Just a quick update, cataloging things, life. I hope to write again soon. I am involved in Compression again, as the vendor coordinator this year. I am excited about it. I've missed my fire family a lot and have managed to get on the board again, managing IT again, and attending a few meetings. I've missed them crazy folks!

There's an amazing project happening, called the Morris Burner Hotel. Friends of mine are doing it, my sister is living there and helping, I've done a little painting and been a part of the first event, and hopefully, there's more to come. Another friend who works with local media recently made a very cool video about the Morris that can be found here: http://www.rgj.com/article/20140320/EVENTS04/140320005/Watch-video-Morris-Burner-Hotel-brings-new-life-Fourth-Street. I feel blessed to know these folks and be a part of this in Reno at this time.

Relevant to nothing, there are certain movies, that when they come on, I can't help but watch them. One of them is "A League of Their Own", which is just finishing now. Another is "Shawshank Redemption". I hope....

Soon.

For now, peace.

time marches on....

i can't believe that this whole year i've only taken the time to post a couple times. amazing what being busy will do for you. i think it's really true that you don't know what you have until it's gone. i have so very many blessings to be thankful for, and in this season of thanks-giving, i am thankful for all that i have. truly....

i am thankful for my family, more than i can say. life has been pretty stressful the last year and a half, and without my partner in crime, my partner in everything, i would surely have gone crazy by now. i am so thankful for dan and our life. i am thankful that i am in the process of owning the home where i grew up and in a very real sense, it is home. it's not a perfect house and i am far from perfect, but home is the place that when you go there, they have to let you in =)

i am thankful for my adult children. i am so proud of my son, seeing the world, stationed in germany and living the dream with his lovely wife. i am thankful for my beautiful daughter who is probably my best friend, i adore that she lives with me and i hope she is here for a very long time. i am thankful that she is in college and doing something she will hopefully love. i am so very proud of my daughter this year. she got a scholarship at her school. she had to attend an awards dinner and she could have taken anyone in the entire world to help her celebrate this achievement. she invited me and it about made me cry and burst with pride. here's my beautiful baby girl:

 i am thankful for beautiful friends and family of choice that help me get through my tough times. i know everyone says this but i have the best friends a girl could ask for. one of my best friends, pinktini, seems to have a sense of when i am at my lowest, and she always has a plan to pick me up or get me out of my head. earlier in the fall, we went to adult night at the children's museum. i always said the worst thing about our town's new children's museum was that it was made for kids! they must have heard me, as once a month they offer an adult night and serve booze and good food and grown-ups get to go find their inner child. there has been far too little of that for me lately. that has to change. here we are, in the reflection of a cool mirrored art piece. kind of blurry, but this was a fun time!

i am thankful for my relative good health and continued well-being. some things, i need to change. working a football game this season, i tore the meniscus in my knee. i did it at work, so i was injured on september 21st and had surgery to repair the tear on october 5th. it's been a whirlwind, for sure. when i first saw the doctor, she had the nerve to tell me i wasn't 20 any more. now, about seven weeks after surgery, i must concede she may have been right. i surely don't heal like i used to, the going is slow, and the residual stiffness and pain i have in physical therapy make me none too keen to have another injury any time soon. here is the knee in all it's awful glory, complete with ice pack
again and puncture wounds:

 

this is a picture of grizzly helping me heal. this had to have been 1-3 days after surgery:

 

i am thankful for goofy animals and the joy that is having silly little birdies in my life. dan had said a lot while he was unemployed and down that he credited the birds with keeping him sane. he says it's impossible to be sad or upset when you have little birdies around. case in point:

this is the binny bird. i guess, formally, his name is cinnamon, but we call him binny bird. we thought he was a girl for a long time because he's very pretty, but we think now he's a boy. if that changes, we will let you know. hahaha...sometimes you think you have them sexed appropriately, right up until they lay an egg =) this is binny's neat little trick of turning his head upside down and pretty much demanding that you rub his head. that a little bird could be so trusting and just lean it's head down when it must know that you could crush it so easily and yet they are trusting and loving. pretty amazing, really. and they have so much love to give. i adore having little birdies in my life. except for the poo. i could do without the poo.

life is always interesting, but i am feeling worn down lately. they say, if there's something we don't like about our lives, we are masters of our own destiny and only we can make a change for the better or do something to make ourselves happy. it's time i heeded that, and am working to make those changes. i will post more when i can. i don't do super well at the holidays, but so far, it's been okay. looking forward to the future and seeing what it holds.

for now, i am thankful, but also experience a certain amount of "meh". life's to short for "meh"...time to move along...

peace out, and stay tuned.....

...and the flame lingers on....

right now. this moment is momentous for me because normally at this time, i'd be in black rock city. this is the first time in 13 years that i am not attending burning man. the reasons are myriad. i had a really, really rough year last year. after taking the new job, in a very real sense, i now ranger full-time. every day there are aspects of my job that i have to ranger. and i work hard, and sometimes long hours. when i had a desk job, working harder on my vacation than i did all year seemed an okay thing to do. having a more stressful job kind of makes me want to have vacations that are relaxing. rangering isn't necessarily relaxing...

there are a lot of other things i tell myself right now, to keep sadness at bay. there's so much more of the world that i want to see, perhaps returning to black rock city every year is not the smartest choice considering there's so much ELSE i want to see. there is a lot of beauty in the world, and while there is A LOT of it concentrated in the miasma of black rock city, it's nice to see it in other places too.

also for the first time in several years this year, i went camping NOT in the desert. i went to a smallish event in the state of nevada over the 4th of july weekend and had an amazing time with good friends. i should maybe post pics of that, but i am not feeling it today.

for the last few weeks, we here in the truckee meadows have been inundated with smoke from a fire raging in the yosemite national forest. my dear friend and i decided to head to tahoe to see if we could get above the smoke. we thought at first we had been thwarted, but close to when we needed to leave, it seemed to clear for us, and we got amazing views. i am sometimes overwhelmed at all the beauty there is around me. i perpetually feel blessed.

there has been a lot more happening in my world that's new for me. for the first time in the last five years or so, the fire festival that I began had it's sixth iteration without me this year. with the new job, it seemed important to set a boundary of not being overly involved and stick to it. no fire performance for me, at all this year. during artown, our month-long arts festival here in reno, i did bellydance, but there's been too little of that in my life too.

life is different, but different isn't necessarily bad. i think sometimes it's hard to know you are in a rut until something happens to force you out of it. for me, this year, it was not being able to go to burning man...and being okay with that.

there have been more cockatiel babies. our baby fred had babies this year with a pearl female and we were blessed with an albino birdie. dan says he learned on the cockatiel facebook page that all albino cockatiels are female. she sure is sweet! world, meet pinky:

the first football game is about ten days away, which will make me a very busy woman again. i will update as i can. i think i need to be more random in my postings and not quite so linear. might record more that way =)

so, while not burning in a traditional sense this year, the fire still burns in my soul, and will find new and interesting ways to manifest! so mote it be.

peace!

Updates, updates everyone...and HOPE!

Life is continuing on. I am going to post updates from the last couple months. Probably mostly highlights. As told in the pictures I take with my phone...

I am adjusting quite well to the new situation, now that I am getting used to it. I won't pretend that my life isn't drastically different, but that's not a bad thing. I struggle still sometimes, and don't always like having to be responsible, but who does?

Without further ado...from January, to now....

In January, on a much-needed day off, my best friend, Pinktini, took me on a lovely drive up to Tahoe with her dogs. She has Huskies and I got to have one of the leashes. This is Burney and he's a gorgeous dog! This was a great day and I feel so lucky and blessed to have such an amazing friend...

On January 25th, I got to be a part of one of the most amazing experiences EVER! I have been a TED Talk junkie for awhile now. I watch them whenever I can, which is to say, not terribly often because if I do, I get sucked in, and then I look up and somehow, I have lost four hours of my life jumping from TED talk to TED talk! This, however, was the FIRST TEDX (independently organized TED talks) organized in our town and on our Campus! Lest someone call me a liar, I know they have done them out at Burning Man before, but this was literally, the NEXT BUILDING OVER from where I work! When I found out about it, I contacted some of my friends at Extended Studies and told them I had to be involved. I ended up getting to help with the registration process and handing out of name badges, and getting to see all the talks live. They were inspirational, phenomenal, and I can't think of a better way to spend a day!

Here's a link to a play list that I created on YouTube with all the talks from that day:

TEDx - University of Nevada Reno

I will truly never forget that day! There's another story related to this that I must tell, but it deserves it's own post, so it will get it =)

As part of my new job, we got to bring Tiesto to Reno. The show was going to be March 7, but leading up to that, I formed a very small street team, and we got to get the word out around campus. This involved doing several tabling events in front of the Joe Crowley Student Union. This was some big fun for me! I will say though, that it makes me sad that young people have become so jaded that you truly offer them a chance to win something for free, and they are suspicious or sure you are going to somehow compromise their information. We did six (I think) tabling events and at each one, we gave away a pair of tickets to this show. There were times, though, when people wouldn't even look our direction because they were sure that we were trying to sell them something. It was a great learning experience for me, though, and I had a lot of fun doing this. I wonder what comes next with this job?!?

My sister's birthday is February 11th, so on the 10th, myself, her son and his wife, and her roomies and besties all went out for Sushi. This is one of the large platters that we laid waste to. YUM!

Every month in Reno, downtown, there is a wine walk. It's been going on for awhile, but I had never participated in it. Until February of this year, that is =) My bestie, again, asked me if I wanted to go, and I invited my beautiful daughter to indulge in a little multi-generational binge-drinking! Yay! We had SO MUCH FUN! We didn't drive, we all arranged designated drivers and it's a good thing, too. It's all fun and games until you go to a place that has shot specials.

Not all of the places are even bars...this lovely airstream experience was courtesy of RENO ENVY and the bonus is, on this day, they ALSO served wine. WIN!

This is as we were at the end of the wine walk, but the evening didn't end here for me. I am not normally a tame person, and it's been very hard for me to be good for a very long time since having this new job. I was not good on this night, nor very tame. It ended about 11am the next day and I wasn't right for a few days, but I sure had fun =) No regrets!

Some time during the next week, while indulging in Panda Express, which is a staple because it's right across the street from work, I was gifted with this amazing fortune. Sometimes, it's not the big, exciting moments, but perfect small moments that make you feel all warm inside =)

This was a great event I got to help a little with. Girls and Women in sports day. Everyone seemed to have a good time!

Got to go to Virginia City with a dear friend. This is a sign back in the Old Washoe Club. I guess they just call it the Washoe Club now, but I will probably always call it OLD because that's how I've always known it =) They are doing fantastic and amazing things trying to restore this awesome place! Before the end of Summer, it is my fervent wish to be a member of their club to help restore their place and perpetuate their awesome!

Post Tiesto, this was the detritus of ONE security guard. 'Nuff said..it was a sparkly night, and a great experience and I learned a TON!

The day AFTER Tiesto, I had a small event at 7am, so this is a very sleep-deprived me, with one of my favorite staff people from this last year. She came to work for me through Sierra Nevada Job Corps, and graduated this Friday. Blanca, I know you will do amazing things, I just hope you keep in touch to tell me about it!

THIS, is TK421. The last time I posted a picture of her, I think she was listed here as #4. Her sister (we think) has been named Wayne for reasons probably safer not to go into other than to say that Wayne is a much loved Burning Man camp mate and said he'd be honored to have a birdie named after him =) TK421 is our new pride. This is her less than two months after that itty bitty little hatchling posted in the other picture. She is a complete love bug, loves to cuddle and snuggle and has quite the personality. Our birdie flock is large and in charge!

My bestie messages me and says we have to do something up in VC upcoming and it has to do with balls. Here's the proof. I was there. We did it. It was fun, and tasty. I will do it again, and go earlier next time!

This was the first "nugget" that came our way. Minced and wrapped in a wanton wrapper, served with sweet chili sauce, it was tasty!

Here is Pink tearing in to hers. Can you see the trepidation and cautious delight as her palette tries to battle with her brain over what she is eating?!?

This is the self-proclaimed BALL MASTER. Shortly after this photo was taken, a very large trophy came his way, as his team did, indeed, win all that is good at the Rocky Mountain Oyster Feed. Notice the conspicuously empty platters to his left. I had to wait a long time in line to sample these balls, but it was worth it!

Here are his wares:

And here I am, indulging:

My favorite of the day, indeed!

The next day, of course, was St. Patrick's Day. I get that we aren't supposed to celebrate a mass murderer. I do. I celebrate my Irish heritage, and it's an excuse to see friends I haven't seen for awhile. On the left in the hat and kilt, is my friend Willie. He and I serve on the board together of the Reno Celtic Celebration. Next to him is the owner of the bar, the Sierra Tap House, who is getting an award for supporting our Celtic Community, and next to him is my dear friend Jill Marlene, who is a member of the Celtic band 3-17 who was playing music that night and was ostensibly the reason I went out this night.

It was actually because I honor my dad every year by raising a pint to him and having a shot of whiskey...to celebrate that part of my heritage:

I wanted to take a picture of the whiskey too, but it was gone before I thought to take out my phone/camera. I saw a few other awesome friends there that night, and it was good to be out and relaxing!

Finally, this week, I went to change the bag I used to keep my shredded paper, and the whole thing blew up on me:

Some days are just like that...and if that's the worst that happens to me in a day, it's been a pretty damn good day!

Slainte!