Astrology, fail?

 So, this was my horoscope for yesterday:

Intuitive guidance will come from deep within today, dear Gemini, as Venus and the North Node align in your solar twelfth house. Lean into these vibes by embracing privacy, giving yourself plenty of space for introspection while meditating on what the future may hold. A serious yet transformative energy will find you this afternoon when the Pisces sun aligns with Pluto, asking you to approach your ambitions from a more disciplined standpoint. You’ll sense a shift later in the day when Aries season kicks off, marking the astrological new year while putting you in the mood to give back to your community.

That was a big, fat, fail, hahahaha. That makes me ask, am I just being stubborn in not wanting to see what’s in front of my face? Or am I reaching too far, wide, close?

At any rate, here I am, no farther along, and there was no opening of the clouds or clarity that arrived yesterday. I am happy the Equinox brought the sun back into the world, and it’s clear to see already, the days getting longer and while we are still getting pretty hammered by storms and moisture, which is much needed, it’s returning to a more “normal” state for this area, meaning the weather sucks for a little while, might even snow, but is generally gone by noon. Last week, for the first time in awhile, I got to see the dirt/DG portion of my yard again! I don’t think it’s ever been COVERED in snow for as long as it was this year. I wasn’t sure it would ever go away.

Then again, as I think, maybe I DID get that clarity, but it came before last weekend =) One of the volunteer activities I really enjoy, is volunteering for a 3,800 acre ranch owned by Burning Man called Fly Ranch. I was there this weekend. It was cold, sometimes, and it was so strikingly beautiful. Being out in nature nurtures my soul, I know this, and was reminded in many ways this weekend.

This is the view of the one of the mountain ranges that surround the land where I was. I had never seen this sort of shimmer on the mountains before, or this level of snow, all surrounding us. The snow has melted, and then re-frozen, giving an iridescent shimmer in the afternoons that was very captivating for me.

We worked this weekend, clearing dead brush, literally blazing a trail that will go down to the Southern end of the property, removing damaged tree parts and cutting up the wood, then moving to a storage space to dry for future burning.

This picture is of the Calico Mountains, in the distance

The colors are SO PRETTY.

We also re-located a couple of praying mantis egg sacks and a very perturbed beetle, who’s Winter slumber we disturbed while relocating some fill dirt to try to mitigate mud for future gatherings

This land gets in your soul. Maybe that’s the lesson that’s been looming for me. Spend more time on the land, away from the boxes and whirring things that sap our energy and keep us distracted from things that truly matter.

Friendship, food, connections, the labor of love that is tending land that so many people, collectively, are caretaking for. Maybe THOSE are the things that matter the most.

Sometimes I fantasize about “running away from home”….and going somewhere, anywhere except where I am. Then I think of these vistas, the land, my community, places I can go where I truly feel SEEN, and like people know the mean that is the highest and best version of myself, and I wonder what I am running from or what I would be running to? Maybe that’s the lesson….that I need to do more of THOSE things, and spend less time and energy doing, supporting, and living in ways that don’t feel nearly as authentic.

There is a saying around here, “home means Nevada”. All throughout the weekend, I kept seeing things that looked like tiny state of Nevada shapes, which is sort of odd. This rock was observed right behind the back tire of my car

This rock is probably, maybe an inch and a half wide, I do a mean crop =)

From the macro, to the micro. Another lesson? Maybe….

Remember to come here, and write. It helps.

Peace.