feast and famine….

so, there has been a lot happening in my life lately.

in the first place, we borrowed some money against my husband’s retirement to do some much needed home repairs. we needed to replace the fence in our backyard and this was one of the few ways we could do it. we weren’t extravagant about anything we did, but the fence is almost done and most of the money is gone. at least it went to something that will do increase our property values and make our lives better. one of the other things we did with part of the money was we bought a used motor home. it will make burning man much better for us this year and we decided to take it on a test run this weekend. we went to our burning man campmates house in concord this weekend for a get together. it was a lot of fun in spite of a flat tire on the way down. that was kind of creepy….

in other news, there are currently two women in my life that i am getting to know better. one of them live locally and is gay and the other one lives in the bay area and is on the message board i spend a lot of time on. it’s been interesting getting to know them both. i seem to like either of them better depending on which day it is =)

on one hand, the local woman is here and available. she obviously likes me, i like her. when we first met and i first told her i was married, i was concerned because she made it sound like we could be friends, perhaps with benefits, but as soon as something better came along, we’d have to just be friends. that didn’t sit real well with me, but she later asked me to be patient with her because she’s never been with a married woman before who was open with her husband but also still loves him and enjoys being with him. we met at a bar the first time and talked….then last week, she invited me over for dinner and cooked for me. she’s really growing on me and i am seeing her again tomorrow.

then there’s this girl from the message board. she’s very sweet and what i thought i always wanted. she’s educated, and her husband knows. the bad news about her is that she just figured out she was bi about a year and a half ago and she’s never been with a woman. she’s painfully shy, and she has three small children under 6. she lives four hours away and at an ideal, she will be able to see me once a month.

so, for now, i am getting to know them both. i feel bad, but they both know about each other and i am not committed to either of them. i have to be perfectly honest though and say that a part of my intrigue has to do with sex. it’s been so very long since i have been with a woman, i can’t even express. there is also some measure of comfort in the fact that the local lady knows who she is, what she wants, and how to go about getting it. i am intrigued and deeply interested. she’s been really sweet to me.

last week, before we left for concord, some asshole hit my dog with a car and didn’t even stop. we took him with us over the weekend and today took him to the vet, and he has torn ligaments in his leg. so now the poor guy has a bucket thing on his head and a cast on his foot. i feel bad for him ,he looks pretty pathetic and sad. he’s pretty wacked out on pain meds. we are hoping he will heal well. he’s supposed to take it easy for six weeks. we will see how long that lasts =) i think he will do okay. i am just glad he wasn’t hurt more seriously and i hope the asshole who hit him gets a giant karma bomb at some point.

i needed to vent about these women because i can’t really talk about it on the message board where one of them is. i just don’t want it to appear that i am rubbing anything in her face or trying purposefully to hurt her. i am looking forward to this adventure, whatever happens =)

that’s all for my update.

peace.