ho hum…..

life is interesting.

feeling kind of lonely and pathetic right now.

i must be cycling because that’s generally when i feel this way. have been somewhat introverted of late. have been journaling on paper as part of a magickal study thing i have been doing. supposed to do three pages a day and not even getting close to that. which is odd, because when i was writing here everyday, i bet at some points it was at least three pages a day…had i written it.

lonely, lonely, lonely.

and pissed.

my son’s dog is sick and my house smells like dog shit. he left the dog with my mother today, who doesn’t have the ability to clean up after the dog. there was dog shit in my bedroom and dog shit at the bottom of the stairs. dog shit in the basement near the washing machine, dog shit in the cat bed. it was everywhere. i told my son he couldn’t go anywhere or do anything social until he cleans my carpets. it’s disgusting. and he hasn’t come home yet so i am dog sitting and all i really wanna do is go to bed. i am way tired.

did i mention lonely?

it’s okay, i will get over this. i used to think "i do all this stuff, and yet i don’t really have any friends". that’s not true. i have a small group of very good and beautiful friends, who also happen to have their own lives. they are there for me when i ask. they do things for me that leave me speechless and amazed. i love them.

a friend wrote an affirmation that i adore:

my body is strong
i have boundless energy
i am a size 14
my mind is clear and my memory strong
i breathe freely
i am beauty and health inside and out.

peace.