Year in Review….

Pilfered from [Hurricane Katie]….

Instructions: Go to your Calendar and find the first entry for each month of 2005. Post the first line of it in your journal, and that’s your "Year In Review".

So here it is… BoehmianRhapsodee’s 2005, in review!!!

January: there’s still a ton of snow on the ground here.

February: it’s about three weeks before i go to pantheacon this year and about four weeks until i go to philadelphia now.

March: tomorrow i have to get up hideously early and fly on a plane to philadelphia.

April: wow. this crazy woman is really starting to piss me off.

May: as suspected, it did rain most of the time that we were camping, but it was also fun and glorious to be there still.

June:  it’s been so long since i’ve written and there’s so much to tell, it feels overwhelming, knowing where to begin.

July: i should be more positive.

August: i had a really great weekend last weekend.

September: it seems oddly inappropriate at this point in time to write about what an awesome time i had at burning man or on my vacation when so much has changed in the world and country that i know.

October: in the midst of still perpetually worrying about my daughter and whether she is still alive or doing awful things to keep people taking care of her, i am also having some of the greatest times of my life.

November: this next few weeks are going to be a roller coaster ride for me, even more than usual.

December: Blustery, rainy, northwest day is what it feels like in my town today.

hmmm….reflecting back on things, this year had a lot of ups and downs for me. there was a lot that made me question my ability to be polyamorous. the jury is still out on that, i think. i agree in principle, but when people don’t behave the way i think they should, it puts me in an insecure tailspin, questioning everything and everyone. i am not sure yet if this is a shortcoming for me, a strength, or somewhere in the middle. probably the middle. maybe we just tried to hard and got caught up so badly in wanting it that we acted on situations that weren’t in our best interest. i am still struggling mightily with the fallout of these events and smart enough not to even suggest anything else until i have some more time to process stuff.

it was also a tough parenting year, as my children reach for their own identities and indepdence. i had gotten arrogant about this and the universe spanked me for it. i am glad i have confident, strong-willed children, but watching them get to where they are is hard when they make mistakes along the way.

not sure why this appealed to me, but it did.

everyone have a good night.

peace.