Vacation, day three…

 Today was a busy day! We got going reasonably early, and the first place we visited was the place with the lowest elevation in the world! Frankly, I am shocked my head didn’t explode, hahaha. Being a high desert girl, I am positive I’ve never been over 200 feet below sea level. Fitbit told me this was a 15,000 step day, and I felt it! Across the street from Badlands was a little break in the rocks, and I determined to climb to it. My companion didn’t want to, so I did it on my own.

This is the view from the top:

10/12/2021 – I sort of love that this was written in May, actually happened at the end of March and very early April, and now I’m looking back on it from almost mid-October. In some ways, I’m very much a mess….I’m too busy, always, and always think of myself and my self care last.

I know, though, that I left this post in “draft” status because there was a particular picture I was waiting for. I had forgotten to ask my companion to send it to me, and then might have had a brain fart about how to save it, on which system and blah blah. At any rate, it was of my scaling said hill, and I like it, because it says “yes, I can”.

This whole adventure for me, was about learning who I am now, and throwing away things about myself that I wasn’t sure was true or had forgotten in the past years.

This is who I am. I forgot how to exist on my own, without another person. Depending on that person for things that they may no longer be able or want to do. This is a strange place to be. A lot has happened in my world the last few years, and this trip brought a lot of it to light. I should probably start writing about all that, but let’s see if we can highlight the vacation pics first, there is time, especially during the winter, to unravel the shit show that is my life….that’s a natural time to do it.

Something I constantly keep in the back of my mind these days is the saying “just because someone doesn’t love you the way you need doesn’t mean they don’t love you with everything they have”.

Is that enough? I don’t know. It’s honorable, I suppose.

That’s where my brain is today. I am going to post this, and then probably do a compilation of the rest of the vacation pics. We’ll see…I need to assemble them in to something cohesive. Already, even that seems like a lifetime ago.

Peace.