does it add extra irony for someone who plays with fire to "burn the candle at both ends"? heh. nice thought.
it’s been awhile since i’ve written, and it occurs to me that everything i’ve written in the last year has been sad or depressed, or maudlin. that’s a curiosity to me because i am essentially still the same person, pretty positive and easy going, just grieving also, right now. i think that adds the other layer that maybe only gets exposed in writing.
anyway, life has continued to be kick-ass since burning man. i marvel at how fucking cool my life is and how lucky i feel to have amazing quality people in my life, surrounding me, and as those i count as friends. i will still never forget what my fire family did for me this year and even though i wasn’t around them the majority of the time on playa this year, i feel a closeness to them that wasn’t there before. we have been through a lot! can’t wait to see what’s coming next!
the last few nights have been high energy and i love it. i truly think i am the most happy when i am running around, trying to fit it all in. right after burning man, it seemed like there was some down time and that just won’t do at all! it was nice, but i was like "okay, what next?" dance class has started again, which is always fun, and as we turn more to a time of reflection and moving forward for my fire family, that collective introspection takes time, consideration, and lots of meetings =)
one of my fire family celebrated a birthday this week, which was the cause of much merriment and margaritas, laughter, love and fun, and then last night i went and laughed my ass off for a couple of hours. we went to see brian kenney fresno (http://www.bonghitrecords.com/bonghit/home.htm) and i haven’t laughed that hard for a loooong time. the dude is hysterical. there’s something seriously wrong with the guy, but i love it!
tonight is more dance, after which, i am quite sure i will go home and collapse after two nights of little sleep. tomorrow is volunteering to clean up the river in the morning, then in the afternoon its to the spa and salon for a wee bit of pampering and then home for hopefully a day and a half or so of relaxation. relaxation = laundry and housecleaning. yay, NOT. i also need to build my ginormous closet that i’ve had the parts for for over six months. then i might be able to put all my burning man costumes in one location, although i am not sure that’s possible, anymore =)
just wanted to write a frivolous, mundane entry, to let folks know that i am truly happy, for the most part, and not generally maudlin. life rules, man, and i feel so lucky to be where i am, with who i get to spend time with, in this place. now.
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have a great weekend, everyone!
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