*whew* and so....

The lack of updating continues =) I have, however, been busy, and life is good for me.

We are going to do another Compression! Celebration of Fire and Performance Art,  so much time has been spent in figuring out logistics for that. This year we are closing down Virginia Street, which is one of the major streets in Reno, so there was a much larger meeting for my permit, and there are more logistics to deal with. Not that this is an excuse for not updating here, but it does let one know what's going on...

Above there are my lovely friends the Asha World Dancers at the Festival last year. They are doing super cool stuff this year, too. They are bringing a home town girl, Kami Liddle, who left Reno and became a belly dance superstar, back to Reno for a kick ass show and some workshops. I have kind of been helping with that, too.

I began this post in February, and here it is near the end of April and I am just getting back to it. I need to make it a priority to put more stuff here and catalog all the stuff I am doing. Some day, it will be important, if only to me so I can relive my glory days when I can no longer remember it as easily!

I've had an online journal for over nine years. I began that journal on February 15, 2001. SO much has happened in that amount of time, but I find that I also no longer update there, at least not often. Since I got this domain, it's mine, and it seems if I am going to do any sort of online journal thing, since I have access to making my own, it makes the most sense to do it here. So, I stopped paying for my subscription. I am sort of conflicted about that, but  not really. Time is too short and resources too scarce to spread one's self so thin that they don't have time to update every where they need to. I don't know if the domain name will stay the same, but for the time being, this is my home.

There's tons of stuff happening, as there always is with me. I have decided to not be so involved with my fire group, although I am still completely committed to the festival we produce. There are a lot of reasons, but I still care very much about the group and what happens, I think I just need a break for awhile.

The first part of April because I am a big fat (hey, no fat jokes!) nerd, I helped a bunch of my Burning Man friends celebrate Yuri's Night in Reno. My awesome friend Lauren made me a corset and we decided to be space twins. This is an awesome themed party that we hold each year to commemorate Yuri Gagarin's first manned space flight from 1961. Our local event, though, also raises funds for awesome Burning Man art. I am proud to participate in this event each year!

This is Lauren, our friend Lenae, and myself, sporting our space-wear. here's another one of Lauren and I, so you can sort of see the twin-ness:

In the middle of that one is our friend Kelley, also known as Pinktini. Damn, we had fun that night! It was a good night, and the next day, Lauren and I drove to Vegas to attend the International Lingerie Convention. Lauren owns an awesome store called "Prism Magic" and I got to help her shop for the store.  Boy was that fun....but that adventure should probably have it's own entry =)

I am still dancing, and we just had our Spring public performance, at an event called "Night of All Nations" that is inspired by the University where I work.

Here's our group pic from that performance...

I love dancing more than I can even express and now have gotten in to a tad bit of teaching, and a new endeavor, called the S.E.E.D.S program. It's a mentorship program that teaches young girls to connect positively with their bodies and also helps them learn life skills that will help them be empowered women. Our program is called daDima, which means "pomegranate" in Sanskrit. SEEDS is an acronym for "self-esteem, empowerment and education through dance".

That's just this month so far. See why I say *whew*?!?

In the near future, I am participating in a circus freak show, traveling to Scotland and Ireland in June of next year, continuing to work on the fire festival, do more fun web stuff, and see what other sort of interesting trouble I can get in to....but I will try to update more often. I still have the Paris posts pending. I need to write it all down before I forget. That might just be a project for next week....after the Jazz Festival!

Oh yeah, and my son is in Afghanistan. I will think good and safe thoughts for him each day. He is my baby!

Peace! A girl can hope....

eeep!

i look and can't believe it's been closer to a year than not, since i've posted. oh my...

2009 was an amazing year for me. i realized a dream in getting to travel to europe for the first time, visiting paris, normandy, and versaille in june.

here are pictures, for anyone that happens along to this site:

day one:



day two:



day three:



day four:



day five:



day six:



the france trip culminated in getting to spin fire in front of the eiffel tower. THAT was an amazing experience!

here's the video for that:



that was pretty much the highlight of my year, although i also produced an amazing celebration of fire and performance art, attended burning man, and survived the holidays!

now, as i look forward to 2010, this will not be an international travel year for me. i want to save and pay for a trip to ireland and scotland that's supposed to happen in 2011...so i am thinking perhaps a road trip or two to burning man regional events, perhaps ranger in some different places and see what else i can do...

peace, for now!

gah!

sheesh, and i thought my last entry was sort of upbeat. not so much with a title like "tis the season…of suck". heh. oh well…. 

 i really am doing pretty amazing, even though i have sad days. today is feeling like a pretty good day for the following reasons: 

1.  it’s friday 
2. my honey comes home today 
3. i have a three day weekend 
4. in 2011, i will go to ireland and scotland 
5. i am healthy 
6. i have managed to keep all my weight off and my clothes just keep getting more and more loose.

tis the season….of suck

this is a really bad time of the year for me.

i can’t believe my mom has been gone for three years. it seems like yesterday, and while at most times of the year the pain is a dull ache it seems to flair around this time of year into a red-hot poker that sears through my heart. i try to keep myself busy and try to stay upbeat, and most of the time i succeed. and then it hits me…

i have been trying to distract myself and that helps somewhat. i just read all four twilight books in about a week or less. that was entertaining. i wish there was more. escapism is an okay form of therapy =) i really am doing fine, but come here, as always, when i need an outlet for things i don’t feel comfortable expressing in other places. does this mean that my life has become so full most of the time that my need for open diary has decreased? that’s an interesting thought to ponder, but i think it’s more a time issue…

a few months ago, i went through a change at work. they decided that i needed to be more visible, so they took my nice, cozy, comfy office away from me and forced me in to a cubicle in the center of the noisiest, busiest office. it’s been quite the adjustment, and not always pleasant. 

also, i am on my way to writing the saga of paris. i want to include pictures, and i don’t want to forget any of it! i think i am on day two or three now, in my other diary, the one where i pay for hosting space. or will, once my initial year is up =) this od window is behaving strangely and i wonder if it’s because i am using google chrome? that’s my current theory. now, i will see if the entry saves…..

yep, it saved, so perhaps it’s just a weird display thing in the code. i need to stop thinking about stuff like that =)

anyway, i am still here, and feeling a bit blue today. i did see AVATAR last night, in 3D and it was pretty nifty. seeing it in 3D made me want to see it in IMAX. i think some of the 3D stuff is lost on me because i tend to see and view things very linearly. i don’t even know if that’s a word, but we’ll say for arguments sake that it is.

i can’t think of what else to say, right now. yesterday was the solstice and i am happy to welcome the sun back, it can hurry along now, any time. my town got a huge snowfall this year, almost two feet at my own personal house, and it’s still hanging around, which is rare for the high desert, usually there’s not enough or it gets too warm to stick around. we were supposed to get another storm last night and while we did, it looks like it was mostly rain. there was just a light dusting of snow out this morning, and the roads didn’t seem nearly as frozen as they have in the past.

if any of you like chill-loungy type instrumental-based music, you should check this out, it’s very beautiful:

auditory canvas

that’s all i have for right now, will try to get back sooner than i did last time =)

peace.

auditorycanvas.bandcamp.com/album/fabric-of-life

Confessions of a bad web mistress...

Photo by Caroline

Above is a shot of me getting zombie-fied for a recent belly dance gig. Good times, that.

I find that I am actually experiencing that which everyone says is true...the mechanics car sucks, the doctor is always sick, the plumbers pipes are always clogged, and the web persons website is kind of crappy =) Actually, it's not crappy, I love the theme, and I love what I've done with it thusfar, what I am NOT apparently good at, is updating it.

I am going to make a concerted effort to change that, though. I am actually working on a project that organizes many of the photos from Paris, and I want to post them here, in a day-to-day sort of way, and write everything down so I don't forget it.

Life is for living. Blogs are for remembering and recording so one doesn't forget. The issue is that I've been so busy living, the recording has been suffering a bit =)

Anyway, just a quick update as we approach this new year for this heathen soul, to say that I am still out here, have LOTS to update on, write about and do. I will update as I can, perhaps make it a larger priority for the immediate future.

Rest assured that I am well, living la vida loca, and looking forward to seeing what comes out of the Senate in the form of health care reform. This is conceivably one of the largest single issues of my lifetime, and I am excited to see what direction it takes.

Peace!

(This is to preserve my Open Diary entries, that's why it's mentioned here.)

i have sort of come to the conclusion that my open diary is dying. i am not sure what it is. i renewed it. there’s a part of me that cares still about being here. time is the magickal thing that seems to constantly allude me. taking the time to come here. i still think i need to get stuff written down. i can’t believe i haven’t been here since 4/20. heh.

in the time since i have been here, amazing things have happened. i went to france and it was one of the most amazing experiences of my life. i will post some pictures. the other thing that has sucked all my time is facebook. i love it. i am addicted, i can’t help it. there is an immediacy and an interaction there that doesn’t exist here. i wonder if open diary is a precursor and social networking sites like facebook are the next wave in the evolution of the internet? i kind of think so…there is time and space there for unlimited interaction. i heart facebook =)

in about 17 days, i will be producing the second fire show. it’s an annual thing and a part of artown, which is a month long arts festival in my town. i am still spinning fire, but there’s been much drama involved with that, and i am not sure how involved i will continue to be with that group. i am still bellydancing and that continues to be a joy. i sort of change what i am most fond of with my hobbies, like i go through different phases. 

right now, i must get back to work, but just wanted to check in here. i have been a baaaaad diary owner.

peace.

6-13-09 Paris, Day Three

Oh my. Now it's been almost a year since I went to Paris and I haven't written down everything the way I said I was going to. I really wanted to commit to that, and now, I have to rely on the pictures to remind me of what happened each day. I will do what I can to remember it as it happened....

Sunday was the day that we visited the Centre Pompidou which was a really cool place. They call it the inside out building because all the pipes and stuff that's usually in the walls is on the outside so they can get more uber cool art on the inside. That seemed pretty groovy to me. There's like this large open space in front of the Centre, and it's pretty cool because there are all sorts of street vendors, performers and stuff that setup around there. I am sure to many it all seems very tourist trappy, but I enjoyed it a ton and thought it was charming. We saw magic tricks, dancing, musicians, it was awesome.

Here's the photo set from Day Three:

There was this giant flower pot outside the museum, which was pretty interesting. Inside, it was also very interesting, but it's sort of an odd thing. When you are surrounded by SO MUCH, after awhile, one just seems to get desensitized to things. We did see an angry feminist exhibit that I thought was pretty awesome. I thought of my old women studie's prof's and how much they would have enjoyed it. OH, OH, OH...there was one other thing I wanted to say about Pompidou. There is some rad sculpture there. Last year, I took a "Welding as Art" class at our local community college, and the teacher was awesome. His name is John Septien and he's an amazing artist as well as an amazing teacher. In discussing this class with some of the others that took it with me, we mused at what NOT an easy job John has essentially shoving an Art class and a welding class together, but needing to make sure the students understand concepts of both. Large concepts like negative space, orientation, and having your sculpture look good from all angles are a challenge to someone who's spatially challenged like me. Being in Paris and seeing all the amazing sculpture made me understand these concepts in a way that John could not have shown me with two-dimensional pictures. I am not sure yet that I will ever be a decent welder or metal art sculptor, but I understand better what he meant =)

After the Pompidou, we walked up the empty space and found an adorable little Italian place that was sort of indoor/outdoor seating. Some of the seats faced outside, and it was all open air. We got a table on the inside. We had the first of what would be a series of AWESOME pizzas. I would NEVER have guessed this, but we had a pizza with smoked salmon and lots and lots of cheese on it. It was amazing. I had pasta and a salad, and I don't remember what everyone else had, but I do remember that all the food was amazing.

After that we headed back to our neck of the woods and chilled out for awhile. We had some free time, and no dinner plans with the group, so we looked and decided we were going to have Sushi in Paris. This seemed a very metropolitan thing for us to do, we took advantage!

We walked to the Sushi place, through the streets of Paris. It was very cool. Seeing things that are so old. We found these little kiosks they have along the way that allow you to exchange money like right there, on the street. It's so funny how Americans assume everything revolves around them and Europeans assume the opposite, that others may need to access different stuff. heh. Along the way to the restaurant we saw the Canadian embassy. I pointed it out to Margo, but we were past it by the time she noticed. Heh. The days, in many ways were a complete blur.

When we got to the sushi place, it was totally cool because the whole thing was done like in purple neon. How cool is that?!? Then I brought one of their menu's home because it, too, was cool. I think it's like a city law or something that everything in Paris must be a work of art. Or maybe it's competition, who knows?