I am

 

Found this amazing song by "Satsang". Okay, it's from 2016, but new to me...

When I no longer fear the unknown

'Cause I know what I am here for

I keep on troddin' on my own path

Keep on learnin' from my present and past, yeah

When I no longer need validation

'Cause my story is long and I'm patient

I know that I have lessons to learn

Keep my eyes open, each step I earn, yeah

No need for me to feel alone

'Cause I got a place that I call home

Every single road traveled, every single new place

I come back home, they accept me with grace, yeah

When I know that I was meant to be here

And I know that I was born into fear

But I will stand tall in the lion's den

'Cause I know in my heart I am one of them

That there are lies in the facets of everything that we see

That are telling us to be scared, when all we ever are is free

I'm letting go of the things that don't serve me no more

'Cause I am holy, and sacred

And righteous, and true, and I deserve to be here

And so do you

Said, "I deserve to be here"

But I'm in a constant transition, constantly changing vision

Story never certain, there is always a revision to be made

When I think about the demons I have slayed

I am not afraid of confrontation in vain

To the people that seek evil, not as peaceful as I look

But a warrior at heart, so precaution must be took

When I'm trying to give in to the lessons that will soften

My ways and means are changing, 'cause I talk to spirit often

Tell me to stay sharp, tell me to stay present

Tell me to ignore the fools and focus on ascent

Well, I said, "I will starve my ego, and I will remain strong

I will make mistakes, and I will often be wrong"

Well, I'm perfectly imperfect, and I'm only here to learn

And all the evil on the path gets burned

I said, "I'm perfectly imperfect, and I'm only here to learn

And all the evil on the path gets burned"

That there are lies in the facets of everything that we see

That are telling us to be scared, when all we ever are is free

I'm letting go of the things that don't serve me no more

'Cause I am holy, and sacred

And righteous, and true, and I deserve to be here

And so do you

The pressure always comes from the outside

Try not to let it in where I reside

Well, this is my heart, my home

My choice, my love, my life, my path, my voice, yeah

Within my heart grow with each step

Stand firm in where the path goes next

Well, I know that where it goes is where I need to be

The more lessons rained down, more blessings I see, hey

See there are lies in the facets of everything that we see

That are telling us to be scared, when all we ever are is free

I'm letting go of the things that don't serve me no more

'Cause I am holy, and sacred

And righteous, and true, and I deserve to be here

And so do you

At the end of 2023....

 I realize I've been woefully neglectful of this blog. And yet, it's meaningful for me. Life has changed so much. Estrangement, Growth, Movement, Re-Prioritization.....in the five years since I've written here, the life I have now, doesn't seem to resemble much the one that was all those years ago. And yet, it does.

SO, here's a little glimpse into the now, and then I'm going to go back and do yearly reviews for 2018-2022, then 2023, and perhaps, I shall keep writing here. I came to this when I left OpenDiary, and now I am back there too, for less public things, but at the end of the day, all anyone wants is to be seen, and to feel like their life matters/mattered.

I took a recent trip to New Orleans and it was magical!

There is so much to fall in love with in New Orleans! While I was there, in a week, we walked 44 miles, which I am very proud of....even AFTER taking a spill on the sidewalk and twisting my ankle. And I came home with new art:

I'm adding to it already, which I think totally triggers my partner, but hey, I do what I want hahaha. The adding is a lesson to me that I have good ideas and if I have one, I should act on it when I have it, otherwise someone may take the idea, and then I will feel sad. hahaha....Nothing that can't be overcome, but a good reminder, no doubt =)

Crow has been showing up a lot in my life, and that's what will be immortalized on my body next. Lots more to say, but nearly out of time. 

Peace...for now.