And I see that the last time I updated was almost a year ago. I just saw the automatic payment go through for the next year of writing. And I haven’t written. But I probably need to.
I’ve been on a mostly keto lifestyle now for the last year, and it’s gotten a lot easier. I would say that my downfall, always, is potatoes. I just love them so. hahaha….I am not someone who can do deprivation dieting, so I try to have them once a week. Sometimes I make that and sometimes I don’t, but I try to have small portions when I do, sometimes hahaha. I don’t really miss bread anymore. If I eat pizza, it’s largely gluten free. I really liked making the taco shells out of cheese but man, oh man, is that rich. I don’t take the time to do that all the time. BUT, if I’m craving bread or something like that, I’ll have a single slice, toast, or make keto bread, which tends to be very dense.
For about four years, I spent a lot of time working for a “friend” and helping him run his hostel. It really sucked a lot of my life. I allowed this and I think that’s an important lesson for me. I worked for almost free and willingly took on the responsibility of keeping this man’s business running. I don’t feel like he ever really appreciated my efforts or valued my contribution. A year ago, he tried to throw me away with the other trash, and he almost literally couldn’t because he didn’t even know all the things I did. Finally, things came to a breaking point not long ago. Another friend and I were running the thing, me being more behind the scenes, and I had said I would stay involved as long as he wasn’t. He came back full force, and some people got treated poorly, and I could no longer stay a part of that. I am really struck now about how miserable I was, how I put all this pressure on myself, and allowed my boundaries to constantly be violated and had no personal time, time with my family, but this was “important” to me. It feels so good not to be around there any more. It is and was a toxic environment, there’s so much to it, I can’t even. The most important thing is that I am seeing it now and moving on…I’ll always treasure the experience and the memories and friendships I formed, but am incredibly thankful to no longer be a part of that shit show. The relief is tangible.
In another sense, I may have jumped from the frying pan and into the fire. Not really, but I wanted to have a reason NOT to be able to backslip on my shiny new resolve…and, with hubby medically retired, I needed to see about making that money up. So I took another part time, hourly job with another place near and dear to my heart…Burning Man. For about 11 years, they did a thing called the “Global Leadership Conference”…where folks from around the world get together to talk about and see how the Burning Man ethos is being implemented and how people are interpreting it around the world. I’ve been involved with these folks since 2001, and have volunteered for them since 2002 in various capacities. Now, there is going to be an event in MY town that will be whatever the GLC is evolving in to. It’s fun, and I’m beyond excited….
Travel is a pretty constant in my life and I love that, I just wish I earned more leave. That statement is kind of ridiculous when I look at how much time I’ve had off this year, to do cool things, but it’s never enough =) Last month, I went on a Mexican Riviera cruise with my sis and her guy. Tomorrow, I leave for Germany, to spend the holiday with my son. I have a year old grand baby that I will be meeting for the first time. They live in Kuwait, my son works for Boeing, and they have to make Visa trips a couple times a year. I am beyond excited! And….I need to remember to update here more. I am going to go now, and do some other stuff….will try to write more. Here, have some Mexico…
Oh, and Happy Holidays, if you celebrate all or any of that rot. Soon, the Solstice, and the death of the Holly King and rebirth of the Sun King.
The older I get, the less I like cold.
